I will do it

Last night I taught a class on raising spiritual healthy children. I spoke about how you can't just leave it to chance. You must plan for it. I know all of my struggles would be better handled if I planned for them better. Money,home,and of course my weight lose. Most of my friends and family will tell you I'm a planner to the point of fault. I miss out on some fun because of this! I however often do not plan my money my time and I really really lack planning for my weight lose. Last night on the way home I thought Destiny be honest why are you not making plans for these things. If I'm going to be honest it's because I'm afraid I'll fail. If I have a plan and I fail what does that mean. And why do I think this is not failing. I admit I knew when I began to plan my friends and families would know I had goals and they would know if I fall short. It's as if I believed they could not see my ever increasing size. I allowed myself to believe if no one saw me eat it didn't count. Who really am I tring to fool. I admit I've always been a little more ok being fat then some people but I did have sadness and struggles from it. Most of which I hid under my sense of humor. So today I say I will stop hiding. I will stop make believing my friends don't know I'm living a weight lose battle. I will stop leaving my health to chance. I will say this is an issue for me I really could use your support. I will actively plan to achieve my health goals. Through my faith all things are possible.Today I will not just say I will do it. I will do it! Much Love-Destiny