Babe Ruth

In honor of baseball season today I'll go with a quote from Babe Ruth."Don't let the fear of striking out hold you back. So again this made me think about why can't I wholly commit to fitness for myself what is holding me back? So then I said to myself some days your gonna strike out but as I've always said I'll go down swinging! Today I will keep this short even if you fail don't you want to have gave it all. Today I'll try very hard to give it my all but I admit I'm tired and stressed! Much Love-Destiny

I will do it

Last night I taught a class on raising spiritual healthy children. I spoke about how you can't just leave it to chance. You must plan for it. I know all of my struggles would be better handled if I planned for them better. Money,home,and of course my weight lose. Most of my friends and family will tell you I'm a planner to the point of fault. I miss out on some fun because of this! I however often do not plan my money my time and I really really lack planning for my weight lose. Last night on the way home I thought Destiny be honest why are you not making plans for these things. If I'm going to be honest it's because I'm afraid I'll fail. If I have a plan and I fail what does that mean. And why do I think this is not failing. I admit I knew when I began to plan my friends and families would know I had goals and they would know if I fall short. It's as if I believed they could not see my ever increasing size. I allowed myself to believe if no one saw me eat it didn't count. Who really am I tring to fool. I admit I've always been a little more ok being fat then some people but I did have sadness and struggles from it. Most of which I hid under my sense of humor. So today I say I will stop hiding. I will stop make believing my friends don't know I'm living a weight lose battle. I will stop leaving my health to chance. I will say this is an issue for me I really could use your support. I will actively plan to achieve my health goals. Through my faith all things are possible.Today I will not just say I will do it. I will do it! Much Love-Destiny

Inevitable dream

I had not yet really thought about what I was going to say today when a good friend sent a quote. "So many of our dreams at first seem impossible then they seem improbable and then when we summon the will the soon become invitable!" Christopher Reeve. So the reason I share this with you is for some reason I've gone through the last decade believing I could never be fit. I'll admit I still struggle with this. It seems it's simply mind blowing for me to think of myself as a fit person. As I'm a little ways down the road on my weight lose journey I'm not sure if I didn't understand how heavy I'd gotten or my brain just hasn't caught up with my body and realize I've lost weight. It's pretty hard to keep going when you don't think you look any different. I do feel a million times better so for today I'll keep holding on. Much Love-Destiny

If you never start

As with my blog and my overall fitness I am going to say one of the greatest things I've really taken to heart on this journey I learned from my first 5k 2010 Turkey Trot. " You never finish if you never start" I'm not really sure what I was waiting on to start my life I mean really start it. I'm so glad I have decided to get this thing started. I had to tell myself there is no seconds in life so in order to live it to the fullest I should skip seconds at the table. Well today I made it I exercised and ate right! Guess it's like any other drug one day at a time! Thanks for bearing with me while I get this thing started. Much Love - Destiny

The beginning

So I'm starting a blog first of all most of the blog will be from my phone. Second I don't really give a crap the grammar so I know it may be jacked up. I'm starting this mostly to hold myself accountable. I know I've also been in search of something like this well at least what I want this to be. A support story I guess. I would love to build a support to help with this. I can find a ton no pun intended of sites with people who really don't want to put their soul into losing weight and as many sites of people who are super fit and don't get me but I needed something for a fat girl that wants to be fit! So here I go!