True strength

This quote is all I'm going to say today.
"Anyone can give up. It's the easiest thing in the world to do...
But to hold it together when everyone would understand if you fell apart... That is TRUE STRENGTH!"

Just ask

I asked myself today when was the last time I felt comfortable asking anybody for anything. For advise, for help, or even for directions? In the last fifteen years since I've started working I've asked lots of people questions so you'd think I could ask for myself! And you'd think as easy as it is for me to ask questions for others it would come easy to ask on my own behalf. It doesn't! I understand life would be so much easier if we just asked for what we wanted. Not hints not what ifs no suggestions. Just ask what we want! This is hugely important for me to get in all of life and in the sake of my health I must do it now. I have a hard time saying I'm sorry I can't eat that or to my family please really dont make my fav cookies. Don't talk to me about eating my fav foods or offer them to me. I'm not yet real good at asking for help or guidance (I will get better) but please hear me when I do muster the courage to ask you for something or to ask not for something. The thing is I want, I need, I desire, I yearn yet I usually dont ask. Mostly I guess because I fear someone will denie me! Who? Really it's just me for not asking. Wishful thinking has very rarely produced what I wanted! So today I will get off my fanny and go for what I want. If I need help I'll ask.

When your going through hell

I must say I'm on a roller coaster. I do real good then real bad. Tring to find my ground I guess. I was so very upset with not choosing some of the right food recently. I am however working out at least an hour a day and while it's not all good it is all better than the before Destiny. All I know is you just keep going as Winston Churchill said when your going through he'll just keep going! So I'm gonna keep going.