It's OK

This week hasn't been great for me on the scale not bad just not great. But I admit I feel like I did really well. I must ask myself why is it do easy for you to go back to your unhealthy ways? I really do feel better when doing good. It's the first step the first day man it's soo very hard to make the first move.I sure hope since I'm moving I keep moving! I want this. And to all that think and are waiting for me to fail bring it bi$$h! I'm going to do this! Nothing stopping me but me!

Regret or sacrifice

On Monday nights I teach a class and the people bring snacks to this class to share. This week the family that had snacks choose pizza. Now I'm not real sure why but pizza is something I've really struggled with. Anyway all of the men stood up to get some pizza (that's a whole other page)and I thought to myself it'll be fine if you just have one piece. And the truth is one piece for me would have been amazing. You see I could easily eat 6. Then I looked around the room again and a few woman were up getting a piece or two one woman took 3 or 4 but 3 woman didn't move from their chairs. I looked at the crowd again and realized I wanted other things in life but pizza. I'm almost certain all the woman would have ate the pizza if it was magic calorie free pizza but it wasn't of course so they sacrificed the instant yummyness for something they wanted more. It was then I really was honest and said you know I really would have regretted eating that pizza. So I really had 2 choices regret or sacrifice. I watched the biggest loser last night not a show I regularly watch but I must say it inspired me. The lady who won said when dieting seems like it's got too hard you think of the day you had enough and started dieting just how hard was that day. I know the days leading me to this were overrun with regret and since I don't want regret in life anymore I MUST realize you have 2 choices. Regret or sacrifice it's for me to choose and then live with.

I'm back

Ok so I know not many people look at this but for those that do I'm back I'm committed again here we go