True strength

This quote is all I'm going to say today.
"Anyone can give up. It's the easiest thing in the world to do...
But to hold it together when everyone would understand if you fell apart... That is TRUE STRENGTH!"

Just ask

I asked myself today when was the last time I felt comfortable asking anybody for anything. For advise, for help, or even for directions? In the last fifteen years since I've started working I've asked lots of people questions so you'd think I could ask for myself! And you'd think as easy as it is for me to ask questions for others it would come easy to ask on my own behalf. It doesn't! I understand life would be so much easier if we just asked for what we wanted. Not hints not what ifs no suggestions. Just ask what we want! This is hugely important for me to get in all of life and in the sake of my health I must do it now. I have a hard time saying I'm sorry I can't eat that or to my family please really dont make my fav cookies. Don't talk to me about eating my fav foods or offer them to me. I'm not yet real good at asking for help or guidance (I will get better) but please hear me when I do muster the courage to ask you for something or to ask not for something. The thing is I want, I need, I desire, I yearn yet I usually dont ask. Mostly I guess because I fear someone will denie me! Who? Really it's just me for not asking. Wishful thinking has very rarely produced what I wanted! So today I will get off my fanny and go for what I want. If I need help I'll ask.

When your going through hell

I must say I'm on a roller coaster. I do real good then real bad. Tring to find my ground I guess. I was so very upset with not choosing some of the right food recently. I am however working out at least an hour a day and while it's not all good it is all better than the before Destiny. All I know is you just keep going as Winston Churchill said when your going through he'll just keep going! So I'm gonna keep going.

It's OK

This week hasn't been great for me on the scale not bad just not great. But I admit I feel like I did really well. I must ask myself why is it do easy for you to go back to your unhealthy ways? I really do feel better when doing good. It's the first step the first day man it's soo very hard to make the first move.I sure hope since I'm moving I keep moving! I want this. And to all that think and are waiting for me to fail bring it bi$$h! I'm going to do this! Nothing stopping me but me!

Regret or sacrifice

On Monday nights I teach a class and the people bring snacks to this class to share. This week the family that had snacks choose pizza. Now I'm not real sure why but pizza is something I've really struggled with. Anyway all of the men stood up to get some pizza (that's a whole other page)and I thought to myself it'll be fine if you just have one piece. And the truth is one piece for me would have been amazing. You see I could easily eat 6. Then I looked around the room again and a few woman were up getting a piece or two one woman took 3 or 4 but 3 woman didn't move from their chairs. I looked at the crowd again and realized I wanted other things in life but pizza. I'm almost certain all the woman would have ate the pizza if it was magic calorie free pizza but it wasn't of course so they sacrificed the instant yummyness for something they wanted more. It was then I really was honest and said you know I really would have regretted eating that pizza. So I really had 2 choices regret or sacrifice. I watched the biggest loser last night not a show I regularly watch but I must say it inspired me. The lady who won said when dieting seems like it's got too hard you think of the day you had enough and started dieting just how hard was that day. I know the days leading me to this were overrun with regret and since I don't want regret in life anymore I MUST realize you have 2 choices. Regret or sacrifice it's for me to choose and then live with.

I'm back

Ok so I know not many people look at this but for those that do I'm back I'm committed again here we go

Babe Ruth

In honor of baseball season today I'll go with a quote from Babe Ruth."Don't let the fear of striking out hold you back. So again this made me think about why can't I wholly commit to fitness for myself what is holding me back? So then I said to myself some days your gonna strike out but as I've always said I'll go down swinging! Today I will keep this short even if you fail don't you want to have gave it all. Today I'll try very hard to give it my all but I admit I'm tired and stressed! Much Love-Destiny